Tag: Self help

Day 2: A Saturday cleansing fiesta!

Constant hangry behavior from all four of us on day two. We are all doing our best to honor my wife’s insane request for a ten-day smoothie cleanse. On top of that we are blessed to be incorporating the colon cleanse as an added bonus. I can’t begin to explain nor would I the things that I experienced this morning at 6:00am this morning. Thank God for air freshener.

As the past two days have gone by everything I see relates to food. I’ve never realized how many commercials talk about food. Thousands a day. It’s like when your buying a new car then magically you see the same make and color everywhere you go. Have to say though, the upside is that I have lost three pounds already. I’m sure the experienced diet pro would say that it was just water. I’ll take it. Any evidence that this hell ride is productive is a good thing. I did work on the opening pages of a new book this morning so that’s also good. About mid-day we went to the lake and watched our youngest son paddle around in his Kayak. The distraction was good for all of us.  All in all, I would say this exercise in restraint has been fruitful. The family is more connected than ever as we watch each other to see who will be the first to snap. My children will talk about this for decades. In about five years it might actually make us laugh. Actually, when Michelle called us down to dinner tonight I yelled out that I only want two pieces of dark meat roasted chicken with my garlic mashed potatoes. I think someone laughed as we all slivered down to the kitchen for our green smoothies. Pedro is having a great day though. He finished off the rest of my sloppy Joe today and got to go to the lake with us. I keep waiting for this euphoric clarity, something similar to the runners high. It hasn’t happened yet. Maybe tomorrow….sigh

 

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Being where I am

Starting out the new year busy in my head. Work, family, books. My hope is that I can learn how to turn it off and be where I am. In this day and age multitasking is the rule. I would rather do one thing well instead of ten things with little commitment. Not so easy, this being where you are stuff.  Must keep at it.

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Triggers

Working on my book, The Consequences of Breathing and finding the triggers of original emotions can expedite a more honest group of words. The triggers are easy to recall through music selections and photographs and memories. The pain and turmoil that these triggers release are not so easy to shed, which can really suck when you’re not writing and attempting to be a hardworking bill paying normal man.

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Writing!

Feeling good about the progress on “The Consequences of Breathing” Hopefully have a product in the next few months.

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9 Day Release

I’m wrapping up the last of nine days off from work, it was a much needed break from the grind that is the regular regular life life that I live. It is interesting to drive in week-day traffic and see the struggle; it is so apparent in the traffic, grocery store lines, etc. The more time went on in this relaxed staycation, the more I was able to let go of the anger of unfinshed work, disagreements, unmet goals and more. I viewed the facebook posts of young poets, angry racists and the, “My politics are better than yours” crowd. In the release I can view the hypocrites, and the wonderful and talented people I feel so blessed to know, with new eyes. I can also see in myself that I have all of these same yucky and very cool qualities, depending upon my mood. The focus on what I am accomplishing and the acceptance of my current placement in life is fuel for happy reflections in my mirrors. It is good to let go of the constant label that the Society Afraidy Cats give us. It’s so good not to worry about the fact that I’m a certain color and I prefer a certain type of sex with a certain type of human. It’s good not to worry about skipping a few Sundays of church. It’s great to go a whole day without guilt and judgement and without feeling the need to convince everyone that they should look and live like me. It feels good not to think I know more than the President of the United States or my wife. It feels great to love being a man who loves his family. It is awesome to not want to be twenty something anymore. It feels good to go all day and not fix a problem or to wonder when I will die and what that will feel like. In my release, what others are going through and their opinions bundled with the baggage that they drag along is not for me to judge and point out. It is for them to carry and to learn from. My honest and relaxed mind is able to see my own successes and lack there of just fine on a sunny day off like today. The release I’ve experienced these past few days has been a long time coming. I wonder if this is how the cows grazing away in the country pasture feel. I wonder if this is how the the frog that shows up on my porch each evening feels. I wonder if you feel this way. Tommorrow I go back to work and I hope this release follows me into the new week. I hope I can stay colorful and dare to keep smiling like a kid with a secret. I hopeImage

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